Love starts with our truth

The truth that we loved The truth we feel loss  The truth that we grieve and honor those feelings  The truth is that we have permission and are safe to love Safe to grief. The deeper the love, the deeper the grief. It is…

Moving On

(Written to my son Elijah – August 2011 – 6 months pregnant) I took a break over the weekend. I allowed myself not to think about you. What is to come, the pages of to-do’s needing doing, the whirlwind of my mind and heart…

The announcement of Elijah’s Truth and Impending Passing

(Written in Summer 2011 – a few months before Elijah passed & was born.) It is with a heavy and humbling heart that I write and share with you the following. In April of this year, I was surprised and blessed to find out…

Nobody is paying attention

I was called into the clinic room for the test by a nurse who was pregnant. I would say 7 mo- carrying well and healthy. She was non descript, nice enough. And she proceeded to insert the needle for the tb test in my…

Elijah was turning 1.

I had so much anxiety about Elijah’s 1 year an. I started to regress in grief about a month before. I know it has to do with getting through survival mode and all the changes. All the responsibilities had kept me distracted for so…

The only difference between love and grief is that love is limitless.

GRIEF WILL FOREVER HAVE ITS PLACE AT THE TABLE, BUT OVER TIME, GRIEF MAY RSVP LESS AND LESS. However, I know, I always have a seat available for it at my table, should it choose to come by, and knock me off my chair,…