My Grief Gets Hugged By The Light
In the moment this photo was taken one would never guess the multiple challenges and grieving I am battling one minute and surrendering the next. Apocalyptic storylines on multidimensional levels in all directions all converging at once. A breath away from no roof over my head, my infant son’s passing anniversary only days away, the holidays with no parent left after Covid took my mother; yet I am holding fast to my deep root of peace in this season of my lifetime.
I post and share this photo because the personal apocalypse I am tested with in this photo doesn’t even come through or seen or even felt – one would never know by looking at it.
The storylines and limiting illusions I am aware of are circling back to dominate and check in to see if I am really staying true to the Truth.
They do not command nor are captured in this photo. I was on an edge of anxiety and ruminating in the moment this picture was taken…and then I felt the power and warmth of this light; I stopped my mind; I opened my soul eyes to see and feel the beautiful light coming through the car window. And my beautiful spirit tribe, my son and mom included, always are with me. They don’t forget me; it is I who sometimes forget in a test moment of grief, waves rushing me and receding- rushing and receding.
And then I smiled in Remembrance of Love.
The Truth reminder of Who I AM and made of came through the car window to see if I would notice. Notice the beauty of Home and break through the mind spin.
This photo is now my screensaver on my phone and gives me energy and checks me when I, for one more linear time second, believe in any storyline other than Divine Love and living the essence of it. I may slip, but I AM returning faster and faster with each check-in test.
Living the I AM that I AM. Blooming the love that never died and never can.
The pain ain’t got nothing over the power of Divine Love. It just can’t.
I want Love
To beget Love and not live with pain begetting pain.
The more pain – the more it reminds me to rush back into the arms of love as fast as I can.
My smile in this photo came from this awareness.
I am grateful yet again to be reminded and to know this, even when my skies feel dark. They are not.
Remember –
Allow the Grief to move through us, but let the Love consume us.
See it, Feel it, Be it.
Bloom Love On…Loving You On…
Lori Freed
